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People who knew me from a little girl knew me as Miss Sam. I loved the name Samantha and wondered why my mother nicknamed me Miss Sam and not Samantha, then I learned that this was "Old Sam", my paternal grandfather fault. My mother was expecting me when he became ill, and his one request before he departed this earth was that if the child is a boy, he be named after him. Well as it turns out, baby girl it was but my mother still wanted to honour my grandfather, so Miss Sam to the world. Up until high school most familiar people called my Miss Sam until the name gradually faded away, except for a treasured few. My grandfather has been my guardian angel!
Since adulthood, every decade or so I have managed to reinvent myself. No longer the skinny shy girl of my youth, I can say it has been quite the journey and not always fascinating. There were many hoops to jump over and what seemed like impossible mountains to climb but I made it! Now, looking back it was all fascinating, if only I had seen it that way at the time. Oh well, wisdom comes with age they say - in most cases at least.
The last fifteen years have been the most educational and transformational and I believe it started with taking a good look in the mirror and asking myself some really serious questions after my 29 year old brother died suddenly. And yes, I did take that look in the mirror, I remember as if it was yesterday! On returning from the funeral in Jamaica I stood in my bathroom at the house on Royal Palm and bawled my eyes out and asked myself what is life really about? What is the purpose of it and why am I hear? I had seen how quickly after my brother's funeral what remained his belongings in Kingston were gathered up and delivered to my parents house in the country. Yes, believe it or not, he wasn't cold before his cabinet making shop was plundered, tools and material, including the boards from a freshly sawed cedar tree cut from my grandparents property and given to him as a gift from my father to kick-start his business, disappeared.
I remember sitting on the bed in his room at home in the country and stared at the box and thought, "what is man?". I resolved then and there to live the best life I can because this is the life I have and I am only here for a short time. So then, the deeper spiritual work began and I have learned a lot!
I am happy with my life and it is very peaceful. I treasure this peace, there is nothing more valuable to me than the peace I now enjoy because it was not always this way.
God willing, In a few short months I will officially be stepping into the next 30 years or as +Jane Fonda refers to as her 3rd act and I welcome it. I never imagined I would be this happy to be on the threshold of 60 years old! Now I can relate to the songs of triumph because when you have overcome a lot you have much to be thankful for and my heart and bursting with gratitude!
I have made it my priority to do what is in my power to stay physically and mentally fit and alert, to be fully engaged in life and to fully participate in the business of living. The rest is up to God. Live well, do good,be happy - that's the plan.
MissSam
November 15, 2014
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